"KUTOB"

With all those years that we are with you, I'm the only person you really felt the "kutob" pero during that time I'm not that matured and ready enough to hear your answer that is why I kept it my self. After a loooooong years now I think I'm ready for that answer...Until February 13, 2011 came..We had all the time to talk and the conversation goes well. Usapang family (checked) usapang freinds (checked) usapang lovelife hmmmmmm we had a lot of things to talked about. I think that moment is the right time to ask you those things para malinaw na ang lahat ng kutob. I said I'm ready with your answer but by the time na narinig ko ang sagot mo na inaasahan ko naman na yun ang maririnig ko sayo mas mahirap pala.. painful pala siya. haha Buti na lang that time God reminded me to be a good person, reminded me to think of the positive side of the situation, reminded me that more than anything else, you need more comfort. Well, I'm so happy that everything goes well.

The hardest part now is to make a decision, decision to tell or not, which we know other people will be affected. Maybe, time will came masasabi din natin... Pero what is important now is you are happy and you not hurting other people, and most of all the RESPECT is still there. I just want to tell you that I appreciated you for being honest... I understand and accepted you. Tulad nga ng paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sayo na.." What ever is the situation right now, I'm always praying for it and continue prayig for it... and I'm claiming it"... I'm always thanking you for all the efforts that you have done for us and we always loving you and I love you. God bless. JNC

I want you to know..(My Kuya Joel)

I remember when we are still a kids kung anong meron ang Kuya Joel dapt meron din ang Kuya Jumar pero tatay and nanay won't forget their little princess. (during that time ako pa ang bunso)... Tuwing nakikita ko ang mga pictures namin so funny.. Si kuya Joel hating-hati ang buhok at si kuya Jumar nman ang shorts makaluma tlga... siyempre ako ang stockings na net color white designed eh micky mouse.. Sana lang naitago natin yun...Wala lang those were the days.....

We are so blessed  to  have a Kuya like you. I'm saying this not because of the material things that you've given us, but,  it's because you really made us feel that you are really  our Kuya.   We are both working now and have our anda pero you never told me na "oy may pamilya tayo sa province ha" instead, you made me feel na "enjoy mo lang ang life mo ha you deserved it"... Maybe it's unfair for you kasi nga you are the one who really help them financially.(pang-support lang ako).. hahhaha

You know what? I'm so happy that you've shared your secrets with me.. hehehe.. at yung una nahuli kita... Well, pasensiya but you know your sister I'm just telling you the things I think is right...  And now, another secret huh.... to be continued pa.... hahha

10 Things I want you know:

1) I prayed that we can go to church together. (with our family)

2) We miss you and we loved you.

3) I want you to be happy.

4) Don't be  tired of helping tatay and nanay.

5) Please be careful always.

6) I'm always praying that you will find your right girl.

7) Aalagaan kita pa tumanda kang binata... hehehe

8) We promise you na magpapakabait kami ni Camille.

9) Be strong kz we have a Big God.

10) Sana matuwa ka dito kz this is really for you.

GOD BLESS MY DEAR KUYA!

My Christmas Vacation 2010

December 2010... I've always waited this month to come because aside from it's Christmas, it is also the loooongest vacation I ever had for the whole year. I enjoyed my vacation a alot.. as in a lot... with my family. I had a time to bond with my tatay, nanay, kuya Jumar, my dear sister (bunso) Janine and ofcourse with my pamangkins Zymon and Eugene. We miss my kuya Joel wala kasi siya his working abroad. This is also my time to have fun with other relatives. My highschool frerinds are also there. They are always dropping to our house to para ayain ako lumabas kz naman if they will not do that hindi na ako lalabas. They knows kz na mas gusto ko mag-stay sa bahay kaysa lumabas. A big thanks to you guys.

December 26, 2010 -  Arrival of Bhel, Janiz, and Edison in our house. (Pangasinan)

Today is a bonding moment... We %&#)@)>++ a lot with my Kuya Jumar...

December 27, 2010 -  Arrival of Marlon, Champoy, and Emman in our house (Pangasinan)

Full-circle eto. I'm so excited to be with my freinds especially in our house. This is really an unforgettable moment/s. hehehe.. It's my first time to have lunch with them called " BOODLE FIGHT"... Super saya!  Kinagabihan they wanted to experiencekasi the Christmas Ball in the province ayaw ko man pumunta napilit din nila ako at nadramahan. So in the end pumunta din kami. Sobrang nakakatawa kasi Una, Marlon and my sister Camille join the paper dance contest sobrang nkakatawa si Marlon kz she experienced to dance (cha-cha, tango, modern, sexy dance?) hahahha... Pangalawa, Si Champiy, pinipilit nmin siyang sumayaw sabi niya ayaw niya pero suddenly nkalingat lang ako he is there sa dance floor and take note his taking picture in his own inunahan pa kami.hahhahaha... Last, lakas ng loob nilang lahat sumayaw sa gitna... hahhaha At hanngang sa paguwi kz mdeyo malayo din yung distance sa bahay. Nagkakatakutan at nagpapahabol sa mga aso. Super puyat but we need to do our next activity.

December 28, 2010  Here we come City of Baguio... (with Emman, Janiz, Champoy, and Marlon)

We woke up late si Janiz lng gumising ng maaga. Super late na rin kami nkaalis ng bahay (please ask Marlon and Champoy why) hahaha... Talaga namang nkakatuwa kz when we got there in the van station walng masakyan so we decided to ride in an ordinary bus. Hindi pa nkakalayo si Janiz tulog na. hahhaha sinundan ni Marlon, sunod si Kuya Emman at winner si Champoy pang-huli at alangan nmn matulog din ako...hahahha 12:00nn finally we reach Baguio at foggy pa rin and it's sooo cold... First route BurnHam Park... picture! picture! Lunch----lunch----lunch---- Mines View .....shopping...shopping...walking..walking while eating Taho STRAWBERRY flavor....hahaha... down to  Mansion House to Wright Park to...... walking...walking...Botanical Garden...pero madilim na hindi na nmin makita ang mga flowers... Makakalimutan ko ba ang matandang nagpapicture kay Marlon... wahahahahah.... nadaanan din pala nmin yung Haunted House..... (Did I forgot something?) basta! . Champoy and Marlon are pretending na hindi sila nilalamig... kz kung mkapagshorts at hindi naniwala sa akin na mgdala ng jacket.. haler! Baguio kaya pupuntahan... hahha (commercial lang). .. Siyempre we won't forget the picture picture moment.  We had dinner at Chowking (sarap kasi ng soup) along Session Road..... Hay naku walang kapaguran na lakad at picture picture!

Eto ang delubyo... late na wala na kami maskyan pababa... pauwi...wahahahhaha..... buti na lang at may Genesis at may kagawad si Ate Janiz.... hahhaha

December 29, 2010 - Marlon and Champoy says Hi to CornVille

I almost forgot na mag-aanak ak ng binyag ngayon. I decided na isama si Marlon and Champoy sa pupuntahan instead na iwanan ko sila sa bahay.  I'm with my highschool freinds, ung iba ngayon ko lang ulit makikita after highschool graduation, 10 years ago pa.hahhahha..Hay naku! nagsisi nmn daw ako kasi Ireally don't know na yung place pala eh malayo tska corn village... malayo sa kabihasnan...... hhahhahaha Naman!

I really enjoyed my vacation with the special people around me!!  I won't forget this moment with them...

God bless!

Last Day of Work for 2010

                   Last day of work for 2010. Medio nkakalungkot kasi ang dami ko mamimiss dito sa Manila for almost 3 weeks. My HSC family, Life Group, friends, my office tsaka mga malls.(hahahaha). Ang saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya naman ng week na to...  Uuwi na ako sa province mamayang gabi , loooooooooong vacation eto... May list na ako ng mga activities ko for vacation para fair sa mga kamag-anak... 

                   Goodbye 2010 and hello 2011!!!! Masaya nmn ang 2010 ko pero sana mas masaya ang 2011. Madaming nangyari sa 2010 pero sana mas madaming mangyayari ng 2011. Strong ako ng 2010 pero mas stronger ako ng 2011. 

                     MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! GOD BLESS!

Party! Party! Party!

A week ago I attended a lot  of Christmas Parties and I enjoyed it.

December 8, 2010 -  Feu-East Asia College 70's Christmas Party @ Manila Grand Opera Hotel

             It's so nice looking my co-Associates wearing their 70's outfit.  Grabe habang nag-aantay magstart yung pary sobrang picture-picture kami kasi we are all happy looking ourselves wearing 70's outfit. Each department also prepared a presentation and well, my department (HSC)  is soooooo excited also  to show ours. For the passed years HSC is the depending champion. hahaha (kapressure)... Unexpectedly, I received my 5-year award in the College unfortunately, certificate lang ang meron ako.... hahhaha  I won also the raffle Php 500.00 (big time). At the end of the day we went home so tired and ofcourse went home with a BIG SMILE.

December 9, 2010 - Life Group Christmas Party @ Venj Place, Balic-balic, Manila

            This is my favorate party! First time that my Life Group gathered outside the campus. We are with our anakis and sobrang nakakapagod tumawa ng tumawa kasi halos lahat ng mga bata may kanya-kanyang klase ng pagpapatawa. Yung iba talaga wala pang ginagawa nakakatawa na. Each courses prepared a presentation hahahhah mga kakaibang presentation. Ang CS pang best actor and actress, ang ECE/EE hmmmmmm pang ASAP? (ewan) hahah, ang IT/CE they did not forget to prepare for their RED outfit pero medio nkalimutan nila magpractice..ahahahha.. pero pasok na rin sa Party Pilipinas... hhahha at eto may ngsarili ng presentation si Chua and Villafuerte.... pero I'm not sure kung saan sila pasok... Wow! This is one of my favorate... hahhaa special presentation ni Champ and Joanna (with  Kebs hahahha) hhhhhaaaaaayyyyy... kakatwa sila panoorin.... toink! Ang dami pa nangyari after the party, dami-dami pa kulitan...... Well, ang saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya saya talaga..... GOD BLESS LIFE GROUP!

December 10, 2010 - HSC Masquerade Christmas Party, M304/M305

               Ako ang organizer ng party na 'to kaya dami pagod for the preparations... but, It's worth it kasi all my faculty members are very cooperative. They wear their best outfit.. sobrang pinaghandaan talaga nila... Ang games nakakatawa, ang mga raffle prizes, ang HSC Sessionistas, and higit sa lahat ang umaapaw na blessing sa food. We are happy also kasi Ms. Badeth gave us a official HSC t-shirt. Yeeeeehhheeyyy!!!! I loved my HSC family.

December 16, 2010 -  Academics Christmas Party, M304/M305

             Very simple party! It's a lunch party..... hahhahahha

im forever yours by Planetshakers

BE RECONCILED

TRUST that’s one of the powerful words for me.  I really hate the feeling of being betrayed. Isn’t that painful that the one you’ve trusted will just turn back to you. “Breath in breath out” yan ang sabi sa akin ng isang kaibigan. That time I think it’s not that effective. Gumawa ako na mga bagay na gusting-gusto ko  just to avoid the feeling of pagka-inis kasi that’s what I always did kapag alam ko na na parating na si inis. Waaaahhhh! In my realization it’s not even effective during this time… Nakakiiyak pala pag sobrang inis mo na tapos hindi mo mailabas kasi nga you don’t want to tell other people what happen kasi you are still protecting that person. Naghahanap ka ng comfort pero wala kang mahanap.  I always hated to be alone and sad pero eto siya nagpaparamdam sa akin.

It’s almost 2:00 in the morning and still I can’t sleep. Isa lang pala ang kailangan kung gawin to have peace of mind during that time. Someone told me what to do. All the time pala na nag-emote ako nakikita niya. Siguro sabi Niya andito lang naman kasi ako dedma ma ka lang. (funny).. I prayed and this time sobrang kakaiba ang feeling, little by little may mga bagay na ipinapaintindi sa akin. At first, parang magulo pa kasi na-over power pa ako ng inis ko.  I know He comforted me and telling me na what I felt right now is His one way for me to realized  na hindi lahat ng tao sa paligid mo ay pwede mong pagkatiwalaan na they are free to hurt you anytime they want.. Bakit kaya nabuo ang word na LIAR? (funny)…

Thank you because there is YOU who comforted me and reminded the possible things that can be encountered in my everyday life. Thank you for making me realized the situation in positive way.

                            

Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you; leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.” – Matthew 5:23-24

Last Day of Life Group

December 1, 2010. Today is the last day of our gathering in our life group. So happy to see students entering the room A401 which that time we consider it as fellowship room. Well, usual some of them are late, but you can see in their faces that they are really excited. Normal things happen, tawanan, kanya-kanyang kwentuhan, at excited sa mga susunod na mangyayari. It’s a little bit sad kasi we will miss all the students, especially those who attended only these term.

What we did today is to enjoy the fellowship and we’ve talked about our Life Group Christmas Party on December 8, 2010 at Kuya Venj house (Balic-balic). Nagbunutan na rin kami for our exchange gift. So funny kasi nga we used code names to hide their real identity. Nakakatawa ang mga naiisip nilang code names. Sana nga all of them can attend the party kaya yung iba talaga hindi pwede.

After the fellowship walang humpay na tawanan at kulitan na naman. We shared our new discovered game ung “sabayang bigkas”. Mangungumusta kami ng isang tao nang sabay sabay. Hahahaha….  Things like this are very memorable to me especially when we see them happy.

We will miss you Life Group for almost three weeks.

Thank you Lord for another term of fellowship.