TRUST that’s one of the powerful words for me. I really hate the feeling of being betrayed. Isn’t that painful that the one you’ve trusted will just turn back to you. “Breath in breath out” yan ang sabi sa akin ng isang kaibigan. That time I think it’s not that effective. Gumawa ako na mga bagay na gusting-gusto ko just to avoid the feeling of pagka-inis kasi that’s what I always did kapag alam ko na na parating na si inis. Waaaahhhh! In my realization it’s not even effective during this time… Nakakiiyak pala pag sobrang inis mo na tapos hindi mo mailabas kasi nga you don’t want to tell other people what happen kasi you are still protecting that person. Naghahanap ka ng comfort pero wala kang mahanap. I always hated to be alone and sad pero eto siya nagpaparamdam sa akin.
It’s almost 2:00 in the morning and still I can’t sleep. Isa lang pala ang kailangan kung gawin to have peace of mind during that time. Someone told me what to do. All the time pala na nag-emote ako nakikita niya. Siguro sabi Niya andito lang naman kasi ako dedma ma ka lang. (funny).. I prayed and this time sobrang kakaiba ang feeling, little by little may mga bagay na ipinapaintindi sa akin. At first, parang magulo pa kasi na-over power pa ako ng inis ko. I know He comforted me and telling me na what I felt right now is His one way for me to realized na hindi lahat ng tao sa paligid mo ay pwede mong pagkatiwalaan na they are free to hurt you anytime they want.. Bakit kaya nabuo ang word na LIAR? (funny)…
Thank you because there is YOU who comforted me and reminded the possible things that can be encountered in my everyday life. Thank you for making me realized the situation in positive way.
Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you; leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.” – Matthew 5:23-24
